A Letter to Me
Hello, me. On a day like this, I want to say hello to you — to me, so you know that you never have to feel lonely. Too many people come and go, but you know you will never have to be alone because you will have my company.
It feels like a long while since I asked you how you have been. The world has never failed to do its job to keep us busy. Every day is the same routine repeated, over and over again, too many times that makes us forget that there is happiness to simple things, and there are meanings in everything waiting to be found.
How are you? You’ve gotten that question a lot, haven’t you? But it’s never easy to answer the questions. ‘I’m fine’ sounds like a lie, but you don’t think you can just say the opposite. ‘I’m not fine’ will need a long explanation. Nobody has the time to be vulnerable and so do you. Or maybe you just don’t really know how you are feeling.
Adult life is sad and boring
That’s what you said. That’s why you found it easier to laugh at some dad jokes than to cry to a sad story. Nothing is more boring than having to wake up every day to repeat the same routine. And nothing is sadder than growing up to see everything and everyone that you have known for so long slowly changing and drifting away from you. But those boredom and sadness have become your friend. You have become so used to them that they always linger on you without you realizing it.
On a day like this, I know that you long for someone’s company, to give you a pat on your head or maybe a warm hug. These days when you’re tired of work, you don’t feel good about yourself, and you started hating on too many things about yourself. You want someone to be there for you. But you know that the one, is yet to be found and the only one that you have is yourself.
So I am here to tell you, you will be fine. The storm will pass and your days will not be so gloomy anymore. There may or may not be any rainbow, but the sun will shine again.
Until then, please stay sane and stay alive.
Karanganyar, 20 September 2022
