A Friendly Reminder:
it will pass
I haven’t been feeling well for these past few weeks. Being sick for too long is frustrating, and it’s giving me way too much stress. I decided to go and see a doctor and get a prescription since the over counter medicine clearly didn’t work for me.
My father drove me for the doctor's visit. The doctor only does his appointment early in the morning (and by early I mean 6 AM to 7 AM kind of early) or in the evening. Since I have an afternoon-night shift for this month, I had to wake up super early to see the doctor. The doctor I visited is the same doctor I have been visiting since I was just a baby. He opened his practice in his house, which is located in the neighborhood we used to live in when I was a kid.
There are many routes we can go to the doctor’s place but that day my dad chose to drive past our old neighborhood. It felt very strange to me. We drove past by my elementary school and I look at it as if I have no recollection of what it looked like. The name of the streets still sounds familiar, but I don’t remember any of the houses we passed by.
I have no memories of what everything looked like before. But I still remember what it feels like walking on these streets. Everything was so big and I remember feeling so small walking between these big buildings. But when I visited the same place from my memory, everything seemed smaller than what I remember.
The fact is, everything is still the same. None of the streets nor the buildings were getting smaller. I just grew up. I grew out of my small body and I got bigger.
I sat back in silence while watching these strangely familiar sights. I thought to myself and I realized, every living thing grows. Not just physically, but we grow mentally and emotionally as well. Everything might seem big and overwhelming at the moment, but as time goes by we will grow and things will look a lot smaller. All the complicated things that you see right now, will look a lot simpler.
You might not see it, but try to look at the mirror and try to see yourself as someone else, you’ll see how much you’ve changed. It’s never easy to see the changes our self, not as easy as we see the leaves growing from the tree. But it’s a fact that we grow. And as we grow, we will also grow out of our own fear and our own problems. We’ll walk through everything that is coming to us, and one day it will be all okay.
Nothing lasts forever, all the good and the bad, everything will pass. Let’s enjoy everything while it lasts.
Yogyakarta, 6 March 2022
